How I knew I loved him.😍♥️

So a little back story.. sorry for the long story in advanced ..

I have always struggled with the fact that i was diagnosed with diabetes at 8 and then i was put on insulin when i was 11. I never wanted to take my medicine. I didn’t want to take shots when no one else had too.. i didn’t understand why out of all people god had to make me different . I was already the outcast at school and in my family. So i didn’t take my medicine for years . Well in October 2017 it almost killed me . So at 19 years old i almost died from diabetic ketoacidosis. My life was almost over .

My ph level was 6.8(it’s supposed to be 7.4 anything under 7.0 is deadly)

My resting heart rate was 166

I wasn’t even strong enough to walk

I couldn’t remember my name or my birthday

I was in ICU for 5 days. And then in general hospital for 2 days.

I was put on 5 medications.

And i still struggle with it.

I got cheated on when i was in the hospital, when i got out my boyfriend at the time fought with me and started calling me names and called me a pedophile (i work with kids and kids are my life so he did it just to hurt me)

He ended up getting abusive and put his hands on me .

Then i left him and he stole money from me and a bunch of other stuff including my medications...

he hid them for hours .

Safe to say i don’t trust people . He messed with my health that i was trying to get back so i can one day live out my dream of being a wife and a mom. I want to be healthy for my future . October scared me and i changed .. (my A1C went from 11 to 5.8 in 3 months 👏🏼👏🏼)

Whenever i talk to other people or guys about my diabetes it’s always the same response

“You got this”

“Oh that sucks”

“Well can it go away?”

I don’t mind educating others on it but if I’m going to be with someone it is something we will both have to deal with . There are some days that my medications have me throwing up. Some days I’m great. Some days I’m irritable. Some days I’m sick. When i do get sick i Get sick way worse . It is something that is going to effect both of me and my SO .

But the guy I’ve been talking to for a while now .. last night he said something that i never even imagined him saying . I literally cried . And instantly i knew that i was in love with him.

“we’ll handle it as a team”

Never has anyone seen it as something we both have to handle .

It’s going to effect me having kids .

It’s going to effect my kids

pregnancy will be harder

I don’t know if I’ll even be allowed to have natural births

He may be deployed when i give birth and have a c section .

We don’t know .

But i do know we will handle it together and i won’t be alone .

I am completely and totally in love with this man 😍♥️