IT'S been the worst

The more I keep hearing about my Dad the more I wish he was still alive. He passed away April 21st 2018 in Texas. I've been having the hardest time because I know I won't ever see him again. Anyways we finally got him here back in Va to bury him and whatnot. Like I've been trying to keep busy so I won't think about it much, I wasn't ready for him to go at all, but a freak accident in Texas, a meth user caused the entire accident and wasn't charged anything from my understanding. Like I'm really upset because it's just been a mess, like I don't understand.