To chicken to test again!

I am a day late. I tested on days 9,10,12 post ovulation all with a bfn. Now I am to chicken to test again. I don’t know how much more disappointment I can take . I was so sure this was the month I had one sided cramping, fatigue , and nausea. I had all of this with my first time being pregnant especially the nausea and each negative was like a knife in the heart. I am wondering should I even test again or just keep waiting for af.