Fear, TMI, Not pregnant, Ranting

I am 13 days late (for the 3rd month) and my pregnancy tests are negative. I have endometriosis (I know endo can cause irregular cycles but since the miscarriage a year ago, its like everything was regulated) I'm HPV positive and when found, the Dr gave me a list of symptoms to look for that will indicate progression.... I have been having all but one. 2 weeks I have to do another pap and get results... Im terrified of the worst but more terrified of the unknown if it's not the worst. I would prefer the worst than not knowing. I told my SO whats going on and hes.... stoick about it. Ive stopped talking about it with him since he has other things hes stressed about. -End Rant-