I don’t feel anything

I don’t feel happy, I don’t feel sad!

I do feel jealous! I do feel insecure! I do feel out of control!

I do feel like everything is crumbling around me.

It makes it hard to take care of my baby!

It makes my relationship a million times more difficult! I cause problems where there might not be some but I’m not sure! I could be imagining or trying to find things wrong because I’m so insecure and can’t control anything!

I try to spend time just looking at my little one who I do love more than anything but I don’t feel this overwhelming feeling of adoration like I should... I just feel nothing!

I try to spend time cuddled with my fiancé but I don’t feel anything! I know I love him but I literally can’t feel.

It bothers me that I can’t feel and I don’t know what to do