Insecurities

Okay so I've been left for other girls before. Part of me believes its because I'm always nice and helpful and chill, sometimes agreeable and other times I get mad at the wrong thing. Also ultimately I always end up apologizing for my attitude... So my guy, we've been on for about 8/9 months and he told me he reconnected with an old friend from elementary school.

His friend was using Tinder and swiped on this one girl he thought was bad asf and my guy recognized her, asked if she remembered him and she did and so they were texting. He said they were messaging but they haven't been recently and he offered to show me the messages 😤 but this whole situation just mkaes me so uncomfortable.

Like as soon as he said he reconnected with an old friend I knew it was a girl and I just got this tight feeling in my stomach. It makes me think about a bunch of scenarios that could happen and emotional trauma from the past and I'm not one to let go easily and I love spending time with him and talking to him amd going on dates amd I don't wanna picture him looking at another girl the way he looks at me and all these things run through my head and I feel like something may happen.

I try my best to be supportive and helpful and everything and I know even when you give your all sometimes people can still leave for someone else 🙄.

I know everyone's gonna say be strong if he wants her let him go and find someone better or something of that nature but it still would hurt like a motherfucker