Pregnant after deciding not to have anymore kids

I had my daughter in June of 2017, and my husband and I have always wanted to have at least two kids. So December 2017 rolled around and I stopped my birth control. I ended up getting pregnant after my first cycle. Unfortunately that pregnancy ended with an emergency surgery from a ruptured tube due to an ectopic. It was really hard on us cause we were so excited. After I had recovered, we made the decision not to have anymore kids because we didn’t want to risk any other problems and I only had one tube left. I had another regular cycle, and went to the doctor to get birth control. I found out i was pregnant AGAIN at that doctors appointment. I have found myself devastated at the news. I am not excited about this new pregnancy one bit, and I feel extremely guilty for that. Has this happened to anyone else? Have you felt guilty and the guilt passes? I want to love this child just like I love my first but I’m finding it really hard to do that.