What’s left ?

What do you do when the worst thing happens. I’m 17 years old and all my “friends” never want to hang out. They make the dumbest excuses. Everyone is so busy with their lives and I’m over here not doing shit. I tried everything and I fail. What’s the of point in trying. I’m only breathing because of my mom. I just don’t want to make feeling this way. I’m so alone in a dark room with dark thoughts...