Put on a bathing suit for the first time this season...

I know I am not as big as some people so I know I shouldn’t feel this self conscious but... I feel HORRIBLE. On the verge of tears. I am 5’5 and 155lbs and I know I am a lot smaller than a lot of people. The same stretch marks that I have had for years are now purple and growing. Plus more on my love handles. I hate my body and it definitely has gotten me very down today. I feel like a whale when I look at how much I’ve changed within a year. I had to wear shorts because last years bathing suit bottoms were no where near appropriate fitting.... 😞😢💔 I want to cry.