long post. rant. I'm done.

my potential divorce story isnt dramatic. no one cheated. I'm just done.

background:

we met when I was 19 he was 22. within a month I was pregnant. (I was on birth control). we got married when my son was 6 months old. he already had a son from a previous relationship. we now currently have 4 boys total (9, 6, 4, 2).

for the past 4 years I have basically been supporting our family financially. he has a criminal record from a wrong place wrong time kind of this which makes getting a job difficult but not impossible. he just basically refuses. he does odd jobs here and there to make money but 1. it isnt consistent and 2. i have to basically force it out of him to get him to help with Bills.

on top of that I do pretty much everything in regards to the house. I work all day. (bringing my youngest two to work with me everyday) come home, make dinner, clean, etc. I do the bedtime routine. I do basically everything. his only responsibility is to get our older two off the bus and keep them alive for 2 hours until I get home.

I know is partly my fault because I have let him get away with it for so long just not wanting to deal with his attitude or defensiveness.

he is a mechanic by trade and his number 1 priority is his car.

basically I'm just done. I'm miserable all the time. I'm irritable. I don't even want to be around him anymore. I'm trying to get the kids through the last couple weeks of school and I will be asking him for a divorce. i already know he is going to try to make it a nightmare for me. however, I'm worried about my bonus son. he has medical issues (severe anxiety, depression, ADHD) that I have been working on with him and I worry about the stress it will take on him.

luckily our bank accounts are separate. we do have a house, vehicles, camper, a other piece of land, and some other things that will be "fought" over.

I'm just done doing everything and essentially having a grown manchild to support on top of my actually kids 😡

sorry for the long post. thanks for letting me rant.