Scheduled for c-section but...

The birth of my first child was traumatic not only for myself but for DH as well. I bleed a lot, after almost 2 days of painful labour, baby shiffited into an unfavourable position, got stuck and was in distress. I ended up with an emergency c-section. This time around we decided not take the risk and schedule a c-section on the 19th. It was a hard and emotional decision for us. However, now as the date gets closer I'm having lots of anxiety. Sometimes, I secretly hope baby would come naturally in an unstoppable and fast way before the operation. There is so much fear surrounding the idea that I will be giving birth again, it's much more than I can handle. Anyone could share some experience or insights? TIA ladies