Just looking for support.

Okay so I miscarried may 3-4th got a negative test may 8th i think it was and we started trying again soon after that. I’m really nervous to test again since before I found out so early and then I lost the baby and that was heart wrenching. I was so excited and happy that we had finally conceived our 3rd and last child all to lose it and feel helpless..today I woke up used the bathroom and wiped. There was light pink blood on the tissue which I’m praying was the implantation bleeding. I’m nervous and anxious all in one. I have a doctors appointment next week so I am thinking i will let them do blood work as well as my check up to check my levels cause as odd as it may sound I’m scared to know now like last time. I’m just venting at this point. I have decided if I am no one will know till 12 weeks in. Just looking for support from you ladies who are in my position. I can’t talk to anyone about it cause I don’t want people to know