rant!

it's been more than 3 months since my ex and I broke up and I should be over him - we didn't even date that long! I have even gone on a couple of dates last week with a guy that seems quite nice... but I'll be feeling fine and sudenly: BOOM! flood of tears! WTF! I just still miss him and this needs to stop! and then tonight I had this stupid idea of watching an old video of him that I have on chat history where he said he was thinking of me and misses me... I hate myself for it cause now I'm crying like an idiot! but at the time I so wanted to hear his voice... sorry I just needed do vent and well... no one to talk to this late at night...