😔 WHY ME?

I’ve been stressing myself out you guys. I have a 3 soon to be 4 year old son & now starting to have baby 👶🏽 fever all over again for a baby girl 🌸 . I stopped using my patch 2 months ago & ttc but I just feel like my body is broken & useless. I know I’m not fertile bc I check my CM and it’s always creamy or none at all. We have sex & sometimes I feel it’s for nothing bc I know I’m not going to get pregnant 🤰🏻 😔. I wish I could balance my hormones & become fertile again. I don’t know what to do. I’ve thought about deleting all period apps and just giving up.