idk what to do at this point

i’m just so lost

both my best friends are fighting

me and my other friend are trying to solve the issue but both of them keep on being really cold

i just feel like i’m not apart of our group anymore

i use to feel so loved but now i feel like “left out”

and whenever i make plans no one wants to come or they have “other things to do” but when our other friends make plans everyone is down

and i’m going to a new school next year

and i know everyone there that’s the bad thing and i just really want to start over

because everyone in my current school thinks that i’m sassy and that i think i’m the best

but honestly it’s the total opposite

i think so bad about myself

i’m very lonely and no one understands because anyways no one ever is there to listen

i someone listen to me or if someone sat beside me

i could tell them what’s going on and why i’m making myself so distant

it’s so annoying because whenever i want to do something no one wants to do

but whenever they are alone they ask me to do something

and let me tell you something that’s not a true friend

that’s not a true friendship