Feeling like I can’t talk to him..

Me and my SO WERE ttc for 4 months before he decided he wasn’t ready..

but the thing is he told me he wasn’t ready when I was 4dpo!!!

I’m now 11dpo and I feel like I can’t talk to him about pregnancy anymore. I feel like I can’t even ask him to come with me to get a pregnancy test..

I usually start testing 9dpo but I haven’t even tested once because I feel I can’t talk to him.

I feel like he fucked things up because IF I AM pregnant I wouldn’t want to bring that on him after saying he wasn’t ready.

I’m so stuck and lost ladies! Please give me your best advice..