Goodbye Baby♡

For the past 7/8 weeks since I found out I was pregnant I'll admit...I have read every miscarriage article on here and have followed up with all your worries and concerns...even tho I may not always have commented I was there.

For the past 5 days or so I have not been able to find babys heartbeat on my doppler. So I searched every doppler article on here and realized I was probably overthinking it. "Everything is fine" I would tell myself...I have my 12 week checkup on Monday so I can wait till then.

Call it maternal instinct or whatever you want but I knew something wasn't right. I didnt feel pregnant anymore. So I called my OB and they said to go to the ER.

Well I went. Blood work, ultrasound, pelvic exam, and 5 hours later I'm told that there was no cardiac activity in my baby😢 I get discharged with a threatened miscarriage.

Why do they say threatened...why leave me with hope after telling me that you found no heartbeat?! Why cant you doctors with your phd's just tell me I lost my baby? Is that too hard for you to do? You told me my hcg levels were high so what does all this mean? Am I supposed to just walk around with my dead little baby inside me? God help me please!