so ready for tomorrow

I'm anxious...tomorrow is 12 weeks 3 days. I've been worrying about miscarriage even though I have no signs but this is our rainbow baby so of course I'm going to be anxious. I just want to hear the ♥ beat again. tomorrow will be the first time my six year old gets to hear the heartbeat

. but I'm anxious and my husband is working until 1, has no phone so I have no one to talk to.

I want to clean. our room is a total wreck... I mean I'm embarrassed, it's so bad....and I'm exhausted...so so so exhausted lately. I've had no energy to be a productive family member. but I can't do laundry until these stupid smart hours end....

so here I sit procrastinating and trying to tell myself it's not that bad, but it is. I've already found the seal on the toilet float is broken and needs to be replaced, I've got to get clothes ready for tomorrow and boy do I need to shave

but sitting on this app is what I'm doing until 7