Not good enough

My daughter and hubby are my everything and I love them with all my heart, don’t get me wrong...yet, I’m lonely.

I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression for the majority of my life and I’ve never really had a lot of friends, nor do I have a big family.

While planning my wedding early 2016 I finally felt like I had a good little group of friends...but since I’ve had my baby in 2017 most of them haven’t been around.

When people decide they no longer need/want me around it makes me question myself. Why am I not good enough to hang out with? To keep in contact with? What does that say about me to be so easily disposable to people?

Recently I’ve reached out to a couple of those friends to try and make plans to hang out...both said they would let me know and never did. While I tried to get some support from my SIL, she proceeded to tell me how she wanted to go on a trip with her sister and half sister (who btw, she didn’t grow up with). My husband and I have only been married 2 years, but have been together 10...I wonder when I will be good enough to be one of the sisters.

Feeling not good enough triggers me into depression mode *sigh

👎 Feeling alone