so my boyfriend and i officially broke up this past wednesday, but also broke up the sunday before. he was telling me that he “didnt want the relationship” and “there are no feelings” but i just couldnt wrap my head around it. so sunday we broke up for about 4 hours then he came to my house and we went to get ice cream & talked about it. he told me that he already missed me 1-2 hours after the break up & if i hadnt texted him first he probably wouldve done it. we decided to give our relationship another go. we hung out tuesday night and everything was fine. i kinda felt weird though so i looked him dead in the face and said “do you like me?” and he said “why would you even say that? of course i do. if i didnt like you i wouldnt have given us another chance.” so that was that & wednesday started as usual with a goodmorning text saying “goodmorning beautiful. i hope you have a wonderful day” he went to the gym after school & then to soccer practice. about an hour after soccer (at like 9) he texts me “can we talk? i wanted this to work i really did. im sorry i just cant do this anymore” so i called him and we were on facetime for 2 hours. we talked about our relationship and how it was probably for the best & that we are still going to be friends. i knew things werent the same between us & it all started mothers day weekend. he had spent the whole week with his friends so i wanted to hang out with him because our relationship is one where its better in person and sucks ass over text. so i called & i was like “hey is there any chance we can hang out today? we havent hung out all week & i miss you.” and he said “sure let me text (we will just call his friend B) B because we have been planning something.” so he hung up on me and then an hour later texted me “we cant hang out B and i have had plans for awhile now” WHEN HE HAD HUNG OUT WITH THEM ALL WEEK. ugh. my ex constantly ditched me for his friends & never put me first. he called me clingy when i wanted to talk on the phone because he had been playing fortnite all day or had been with his friends so we barely talked. it was just overall very stressful and i could sense the changes in our relationship and it worried me. he brought up breaking up 4 times before actually doing it twice, but each time we talked about what was bothering us and we worked on it, but he said many times he didnt know what he wanted. all of that bullshit put aside, B also broke up w his girlfriend a day after my ex broke up w me 🤔 everything was fine w them so idk if B and my ex had a plan for their senior years/summers going into them or what. they both work at the same place working 11 hour concerts so i understand not wanting a girlfriend bc it can be a lot. but idk its for the better. i deleted my ex & we both told each other beforehand that if we ever wanted to check in on each other to not be afraid to call. im so sorry about the long post i just dont know how to explain it to my friends because they just tell me to move on & that hes a dick. i just need some comforting i guess