It's. Not. FAIR

Currently 18 days late... never ever been this late still bfn... found out that 3 more people are pregnant that i know/know of.... one is a strung out heroine addict that cant stop doing drugs she gave up weed but still does coke and heroine... another one is some trashy girl i use to go to school with who got knocked up by some guy who is like 44 and shes 18.... and the some girl i know who wasn't even trying and doesn't even want the baby! why??? someone???anyone??? why is it that they can be blessed with a baby that they don't deserve that wont have a good home probably will be addicted to drugs or raised by grandparents who are no better than the regular parents or killed??? why can these people get pregnant and i feel like it's not possible.... literally depressed and lost i cry every day.... just out of the blue and I just dont know what to do with myself... my poor hubby is worries sick about me and my mental health since ttc... it doesn't help when people who have no business having kids throw it in your faces....