So over 2 years ago my husband and I were in a bad spot. We weren’t married nor engaged, just dating. We moved in together last February.

Our relationship was toxic before and it was just starting to get better(relationships take work)

It got physical a couple of times and I wanted to leave so bad. I loved him but I wanted to leave.

I felt like we weren’t in love and he told me everyday that he didn’t love me.

Before I left I was going to see if I really loved him. I made a tinder and started talking to a guy. We met up and I couldn’t have sex with him.

My husband has cheated on me before but never had sex (so he says) he was at the mall with guys from work and he walked up to a girl and asked for her number. When he came home for the weekend I saw the messages and I even texted her on my phone (she was 16) they didn’t talk about what age they were , how stupid. Anyways all that was 3 years ago.

We just had our first child and got married this year.

Something came up and he asked me had I ever cheated. He said he didn’t think I did but he wouldn’t blame me if I did because he treated me so bad.

I told him the truth.

He didn’t get mad, he wanted details.

That is SO weird.

He told me he loves me and still wants to be with me.

It blows my mind that he isn’t mad at me. I don’t want him to be hurt. We have both changed so much since meeting and grown together as a couple.

I’m glad he isn’t mad. But could he be mad and don’t want to tell me? He’s always said if I cheated he’d go sleep with another woman. I definitely don’t want that.