Starting over....

Hey guys I’m new here! I’m 15 weeks 2 days pregnant and I cannot wait for my sweet baby to get here.

This pregnancy has been absolute chaos. At 9weeks my husband told me he didn’t want to be married to be anymore. His reasons 1) because I didn’t keep the house clean enough 2) because I gained weight and I never lost it. It has absolutely destroyed me. On top of he told me for him to love me I needed to be a better wife. I know what he says is wrong but, those words still sting.

Needless to say I’ve been away from him and I am starting to feel like me again... I just struggle so much with the idea of someone even thinking I’m beautiful. I literally look in the mirror and just see my fat and wonder if anyone will ever love me for me. At 27 I would love to meet someone new and every time I meet someone my insecurities just drag me right back down to that dark place. I feel like I’m losing my mind!