Gotta rant ...

Okay i don’t wanna make this long because I’m already kinda upset but i have to let this out

I love my mom to the dearest part of my heart but i cannot deal with her anymore .

My whole rant with her is that i have my mom watching my three month old because i work BUT not just because i work but the fact that the military is moving me , baby girl and my husband 11 hrs away from family . My baby girl is her first grandchild so why not spend the time with her before we have to leave ?

Look i don’t expect my mom to watch her at all i pay her rent and everything i just don’t want to hear “ you never let me keep the baby and now you took off somewhere else” & trust me she will say that

But let me get to the point. I’ve been trying to work to save up money for the move to the military base and my mom is the only relative close enough to watch my baby girl plus again since we won’t be back for 4 years this would be a GREAT time to spend it . I have a 6 year old brother on the spectrum ( Autism high functioning though) and sometimes he can be out of control BUT he will listen when told to and my mom said she cannot handle two kids . Understandable !! BUT why didn’t she tell me this before getting a job ? You know ? I could’ve asked around beforehand BUT HERES THE KICKER if i send the baby to great grandmas and aunts house ( before you ask why can’t she go there , they live 1hrs away and my aunt currently is in duty with the military also and has the only car with her so Grandma can’t come get her andddd my car has no a/c so that’s a no ) she gets jealous and wants her back but then doesn’t want her idk Ladies I’m at a breaking point . You know i used to skip school and put it last just to help my mom with my brother when he was small and i can’t even get her to watch her a couple hours . But don’t i dare leave her with another family member .

Me currently ( literally)

Even though i didn’t want this to be long it ended up being long . Idk but end of rant i guess.