lil fucker

ok so i haven’t posted in a while and i really need help, something happened this weekend and i don’t know what to do because i has these very strong feelings for an absolute ass hole and one of my friends that know how much i’ve been hurting and struggling with this went behind my back and has been heavily flirting with him and obviously he has been doing the same back. Recently she put that in a stalker into his head and that i’m a crazy person and now he’s telling me that he never wanted me and he never will. i don’t know what to do, everything is hurting and i cried for the first time in several months yesterday which in my mind is a break through because i have been struggling with depression and that’s an emotion that i haven’t felt in a really long time but on the other hand it’s at the expense of me wanting to end my life. i need some help on how to get through this with out doing some dumb shit like posting their conversation all over social media (which i did but took down right away because my impulses are terrible). Help.