Need advice😭

I found out Tuesday I was having a little girl, I never ever pictured myself with a daughter, so I was shocked and then so much anxiety hit me. I don’t know where to even start or how to express my fears to my husband.

It roots back to my childhood, and being sexually abused on different occasions when I was 3. My husband thinks it’s crazy I remember it starting at 3, but I’ve carried that weight all my life and I’m so paranoid of something happening to my daughter it’s already giving me a crippling fear and I feel alone at expressing it because people would think I’m crazy thinking so far ahead. Like I’m already getting paranoid about people seeing her diaper changes or all male family members being around her or even her being older spending the night at her friends house.

Is this normal?anyone else been in my shoes?