just need to vent 😥

I have 3 beautiful kids. my youngest is 3 weeks ago, I had him at home unexpectedly so he didnt get the proper care when we arrived at the hospital. my middle child had the stomach bug when I went into labor and so he stay with grandma to make sure he didnt get the rest of us sick once we came home. unfortunately he was sick alot long than we expected and it was time for him to come home which made my oldest sick we tired our best to keep baby away and the house disinfected but baby ended up sick as well. after birth I was suppose to get surgery to get 5 teeth taken out but I got sick as well and they refused. so I'm constantly in pain if I dont take medication every 4 hours which I hate! I got a call from my job and was told I could only use 40hours of pay leave anymore time i take won't be paid. all in 2 weeks of birth I'm feeling drained. week 3 comes around and my mom goes into total knee replacement surgery. I'm her proxy so my two oldest brothers didnt think it was necessary to take time off from work so my husband asked for time off to help out with the kids while I take care of my mom unfortunately his job said no so he had two choice quit his job or not help out. I wasnt aware till after that he quit, his reason was " you suffer from anxiety and depression leaving you with all 3 kids and your mom would overwhelm you, i could always find a another job ASAP that's never been a problem but if you have a relapse on your depression not only will your mom be in need so will me and the kids". next week will be the 1st of the month we have 4 checked coming in a total of 3200 and 2000 saved after that we will be broke. I dont know what to do right now. I'm obviously not looking for advise cause I could always go back to work and I am so thankful for my husband but I wish he would of spoken to me first. our babysitter is out of the country for another month so till she gets back things will be really hard and once she gets back things will be tight till he gets another job. I've been having crazy heat flashes and non stop headaches and lots of nausea I dont know if its leak of sleep or the fact that I have no appetite but I'm going crazy. SORRY FOR THE LONG ALL OVER THE PLACE POST BUT IT FEELS GREAT TO LET IT OUT.