Being induced 2ndday in hospital emotional

On Thursday I had a nst appointment at 1:00pm and everything was looking good and fine I was measuring 5.88 units of amniotic fluid, my nurse had told me it looked good but after less than 5 units it’s not normal , so I waited she spoke with the midwives and they said to go up to labor and delivery to see what they think and say since two years ago I had a stillborn at exactly 37 weeks and ended losing my baby because of low fuild and the umbilical cord went around his neck and killer him in my womb & now well Thursday I was 37 weeks and 4days ,today I’m 37 weeeks 6 days today 06/30/18 tomorrow Sunday I’ll be 38 weeks , labor and delivery kept me just to be on the safe side and have my baby alive and induce me , they had I put 4 cervadils in me I’m currently on the 4th one , they just put morphine in a shot , and fuild threw iv and I have oxygen on also , I’m so emotional and scared .. I miss home, I miss my bed omg 😂😩😓 I’m scared of feeling the feeling of actually being in labor hardcore !! And they put morphine because I was contracting and it was like an 8/10 I’m only 1.5 cm 20% effaced , I wish things can go by faster and have my rainbow baby here , safe 💛 how many of you mommy’s have been induced and toook a long process ? I wish I can just tell them to do me c section 😓 can anyone inform me about the induction process and even let me know how yours went , thank you