Disenchanted, need advice

I wanted to EBF and pump for the first year. However, I hate the pump and being expected to produce like a cow. To top it off my baby’s grandmother took her for a month. I stopped pumping as much and my supply dropped drastically.

I HATE that my husband won’t stop pressuring me about pumping. I don’t mind breastfeeding because I enjoy the bonding. But her being away for a month caused an aversion to the machine. It’s causing arguments because we initially agreed on it because of the budget but I hate that machine.