questions about my first time?!?

Storm

so I've been thinking.... ok I view myself as a virgin.. I was raped when I was younger and i was wondering how I could make my first time willingly.. good for me and my future boyfriend/Husband... like I want my first to be magical but at the same time I want to please him good also

my idea first time would be.. if he'd like make sure i not shy and when he makes little noises as he's you know... with me.... any advise on how i can do that