To the men who took advantage of me.

I hope you know how badly it hurts.

I may not have known how to feel back then

But I’m old enough to know better now, and it hurts.

Glazed eyes and slurred words suddenly meant I was ready for you- is that what you thought?

16 years old being stupid and young, one too many lines, far too many drinks and I was so gone I wouldn’t remember how it hurt right?

It hurts now.

6 years have gone and I never thought it would effect me so much but I’m wise enough to know better now.

I wish someone would have told me how it is not okay. I wish someone told me you are worth so much. I wish I loved myself then.

All I’m left with is regrets and feelings of guilt, there was so much I could have done to prevent it all- I put myself in these situations, and it hurts.

But it was YOU that caused me this pain and you that took my body and made it yours while I was vulnerable and weak.

What type of man wants to force something upon a young girl that doesn’t even know what she is doing?

Your few minutes of pleasure has caused me years of pain.

While I may not remember what exactly happened, I will always remember your faces.

I will always hope and pray another young girl-

my daughter,

doesn’t end up crying over shit like this.

I’m strong enough to know better now.

I just want you to know that it hurts.