Complicated

I’m going through a divorce following a long period of 10 years with zero intimacy. It was pretty horrific how much I allowed myself to not be cared about. We have two kids together and he and I are way happier apart.

I’ve met someone new who is way younger than me! He’s made me feel a million dollars!! The relationship is very sexual but we can also hang out together too.

Trouble is I really like him. I know he cares about me. Sometimes he seems like he’s about to tell me something but won’t carry on speaking. Which is quite sweet. He asks me a lot what am I thinking. I can’t and won’t tell him because I’ve been in such a crappy place for so long my self esteem is still pretty low.My greatest fear is that he will cheat on me or get tired of me! Or that I tell him I really like him but it’s not reciprocated. I would like us to be exclusive.

How can I relax in this relationship? I can’t even relax enough for him to pleasure me because the thoughts run riot in my head.

Anyone have any advice??