Tired

I’m so exhausted and annoyed. I can’t wait to move honestly. My family is so abusive to me. All they ever do is tell me how shitty i am. Everyone only compliments me for my looks.

People outside my family tell me I’m funny and smart and down to earth all the time. I don’t have very many friends because I can’t get out my house to meet them.

My family only drives me to run errands if I pay gas or if I ask enough times.

I’m moving to another state and my mom said she’s done with me after I move and my sister doesn’t even talk to me or wanna spend time with me. Everyone seems mad at me and I don’t know what I did and the never tell me.

Like I try to smile and talk to everyone and they give me one word answers and try to escape the conversation. My step sister and grandfather don’t, but they’re pretty minimal.

My mom says I’m annoying and my sister says I’m too loud. I have a hard time putting myself out there cause my family shuns me all the time for things I don’t understand.

I’m tired of feel this way... they make me want to do something destructive to feel numb or less myself.

I’m tired