Not excited

So this is my fourth pregnancy. This was not planned like my other three. Although I felt like I wanted one more eventually it definitely was not now. I just got a new car a few months ago that only fits three in the back. Im not mentally or physically prepared for another child. I feel terrible not being excited but it's just not good timing. I also am not able to take my anti depressants because they are making me super sick. So my depression is beginning to surface again. I'm sorry Im ranting. I just don't know where else to do so. 😥