Are you okay with your man watching porn?

So the other day I found porn in my boyfriends history, and it honestly hurt me a lot. He searched things like ‘little petite slut gets fucked hard’ and stuff like that. The only reason it bothers me is because 1. I’m not skinny at all and he knows I’m VERY insecure about it but is always telling me how he loves me and my body. And 2. I am ALWAYS throwing myself at him! I will literally get naked and try to cuddle or give him head to get him turned on, but he will just laugh it off and push me away or say he isn’t in the mood. But he sure is in the mood to watch skinny girls get fucked right? I don’t know how to feel about this and I am still so hurt. I just wanna know that I’m not alone in this. Thank you ladies