Ladies personal question!

I am extremely paranoid in miscarriaging. I’ve never had one( this is my first pregnancy). I am ten weeks and two days and every every every single time without fall when I pee and wipe I freak out that I’m going to see blood. (I feel like a little lady waiting on her first period). I know there’s always a chance but I’m just curious what week did you miscarriage?

How do I get this fear to calm down.? I’m so scared of being pregnant I just feel like I’m going to fail. And I know having a miscarriage doesn’t mean you failed. But I have a bad mentality and I would think that so I’m sorry for my wording ahead of time.