Sorry this is long 😔 I just really need advice

I was 17 when I met my baby father he was 19 . We got pregnant early in our relationship. I quit my job when I gave birth I did t plan to be a stay at home mom but I didn’t have license and transportation back then.. (got the license now still no transportation) but anyway I went ahead w being a stay at home mom we moved in together when our son was about 4 months.. being in a relationship with my baby father he didn’t want our son in daycare I’m fine with daycare but I decided to respect his wishes meanwhile I couldn’t really work or do anything else so I was solely relying on my boyfriend for pretty much everything he made all the finical decisions some in my name which left me with a lot of debt.. his parents would buy our son things they’ve always been very helpful.. as time went on I started to feel stuck and sad I wanted to do more I wanted to put the baby in daycare so that I could have more time to focus on me I feel like that sounds selfish but I just felt so useless like I needed to be doing more I didn’t like having to constantly ask family members for rides and have his parents pretty much buy everything for our son I didn’t wanna have to wait on other I wanted more independence we were living paycheck to paycheck but also recklessly spending money at times I started to feel depressed and very lonely being a SAHM can get like that he didn’t want me to have friends over due to an incident that happened when he lived in his own one of his friends got killed in his old apt.. my family just didn’t come over as often busy with their lives I guess so most of the time I felt this way.. I just felt like I was in a slump.. so I discussed putting the baby in daycare and practicing driving more ,getting a job , but it’s like there’s always a reason for why it can’t happen(can’t afford daycare therefore can’t get a job) not enough time to practice driving bc he works so late I feel like more time should’ve been made for it . So fast forward to now (I’m 20 he’s 22) We got into a petty argument which got intense and I left him it was a bad breakup (moved out , gone to my parents) and we’ve done this before , breaking up & getting back together . To the point where it’s like my last straw with my mom.. but I just told him look I was sick of feeling controlled and like I couldn’t make decisions for myself he says that it was because he was trying to be protective and we didn’t have much money back then , but I just feel as if it’s excuses , and he wasn’t really interested in making more compromises, I always had the sense he just wanted me to deal with it like that was just the way things were.. which left me feeling so desperate to get out of the situation.. now he’s saying that we can do everything , (daycare , me getting a job etc) which he’s NEVER agreed to before after a breakup and I just don’t trust it tbh I feel like he’s just saying it so that he’ll be back in control again and slowly talk me out of it.. idk I’m just scared I feel like I’ve wasted my life following him am I being immature about the situation? 😔 I’m expecting our second child in a few months I just feel so torn..