UPDATE! 2 months PP

EDIT: Thank you ladies for your overwhelming support and positivity. I went to the splash pad in high waisted bottoms just so I wouldn’t feel too out there. I ignored any stares or dirty looks with confidence. We also got to go to my BIL’s birthday at a casino/resort and most of the party was at the pool. I wore a sexy swimsuit and didn’t care what people thought (pics down below)👇🏼. My MIL watched the kids nearby for 2 hours and I enjoyed my time in a bikini with my husband! I had also lost 5 more pounds at 3 months PP so that was a boost. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!

So at 2 months PP from having our 6th baby, I decided it would be a good idea to get the kids out of the house and go to a public swimming pool since our pool had been on the fritz for over a month. When I showed up with all my kids I couldn’t help but feel like everyone was staring at me. It was my first time wearing a bikini in public since giving birth and I honestly felt good. I felt confident enough to go out in a 2 piece and have fun with my kids. After all the stares (and even dirty looks), I almost started getting anxiety and I decided to go sit down with the baby and wrap a towel around me. Tomorrow my husband and I are supposed to be taking the kids to splash pad and ever since this event, I feel self conscious, even though my husband assures me over and over again I look great. I need honest opinions from strangers who aren’t afraid to hurt my feelings. Should I not have worn this? The picture was of that day before we went out. I’m 3 months PP now and look about the same. My boobs are massive and this top holds them down the best as there’s 3 different ties.

Last 3 at 3 months PP👆🏼