after Autumn was born I had baby blues. the day we brought her home I found myself crying randomly. I was numb to everything except her. for the next two months my anxiety skyrocketed. getting in the car, driving in the car, going to dinner, public places, leaving her with my boyfriend while I showered. they all caused an intense amount of anxiety. I was mad but only at my boyfriend for no reason. I was sad. it got so bad I thought about leaving him multiple times. so bad that him being in the same room as me caused me to become annoyed even when he wasn't doing anything. she's 2 months now. my chest still gets heavy when someone else holds her, I haven't left the house without her yet. I haven't been away from her for more than 15 minutes while I showered. in 3 days is my sister in laws birthday. all my siblings are going out on the town and my boyfriend wants to go. I'm struggling with the idea of leaving her for a couple of hours. I'm struggling with the idea of taking a drink of alcohol. I've cried 3 times today just thinking about Friday. i know I need to get out for my mental sake but I honestly don't know how I'm going to leave her. I have postpartum anxiety. does anyone have any tips?