can’t stop thinking

i broke up with him and every time we’re drunk we always just end up making out, this other day when we were drunk we were making out in the basement and he started pulling my pants down and he pulled his down then he’s tried to finger me but i had a tampon on so it didn’t really work😂 and then he kept trying to push me down to where his penis was. then after that we talked abt our break up and he was a complete dick abt it and left me in the basement by myself. idk what to do anymore because i can’t stop thinking abt him and lusting him, and i just want to move on.