Around 10-11 years ago, i was molested multiple times in my sleep. And unfortunately it was by my uncle. The most stereotypical thing had to happen to me. I remember on MULTIPLE occasions that when i was “asleep” he would violate me. From what i remember he did it 4-5 times, there could be more if i was actually asleep. To this day i haven’t told any adult about it. I have told a few close friends in hopes they’ll believe me. Ever since those nights as a kid. I never was girly, i despised wearing bathing suits, i get scared when men would touch my stomach or thighs. Ive always felt uncomfortable with that. For the longest time i thought it was my fault. I always hurt myself saying i could’ve avoided it. Now i realize that it wasn’t me? At the time i had no clue what was happening as i was around 4 or 5 years old. Last summer, i spent a month at my grandparents house, where my uncle also lived. I didnt sleep till sunrise each day in fear that it could happen again. It sad that im not even joking either.

I would like to talk to my parents about it, but im in fear to do so. Im worried that my parents would fight and possibly get divorced. And the fact that both sides of my family would break apart and become a big mess. And the fact they may not even believe me since i was basically a toddler at the time. This happened a decade ago. i know these weren’t dreams, it was real. i honestly don’t know what to do. This thing is always in my head