I’m in a best friend crisis

I think I lost THE ONE fucking person that means more then the world to me. He’s everything. EVERYTHING and I fucked up fucking bad. No we weren’t dating and that’s the hardest fucking part because he’s my BEST FRIEND. Ladies, we all know how hard it is losing a best friend but he’s more then that. It’s like he’s my soulmate best friend y’all know what I mean? I wouldn’t date him or anything like that but I need him otherwise I’m going to go insane. I was going through shit and I let it all out on him, we help each other with everything so I honest to god thought he’d try to make it better because he always does, but this time he didn’t. He just left me on read.

I need him back in my life because he is my heart and if he’s not here I’m going to brake apart little by little

Someone please tell me what to do