Multiple losses in a year.

My fiancé and I have been trying to have a baby on and off since fall of last year. Nothing seems to happen. I lost my dad last spring, my uncle in June, and now my 19 year-old nephew this July. I had an early miscarriage at the end of 2015. I thought I would be through with the grief. At this time, I have just given up on having kids and I am just focusing on me. It feels selfish. I have had comments from it’s one less Christmas gift to its your family’s sins that killed your nephew. I’m over it. Things have to get better.