depressing

So for the last few weeks I have been feeling so different. I really hate having to go to work and I just wanna quit (which I never liked my job to begin with). I have been wanted to self harm so bad (I used to self hard when I was younger). I just wanna lay in bed all day. I get upset about everything. I just hate my life so much. I feel like My life is spinning out of control and I can't hang on much longer. I'm scared of what these feeling's might lead to if I don't get help. My bf has been so amazing to me and trying to help but I always blow up at him over stupid stuff and then just feel so horrible afterwards. I just need someone to talk to who has been thru this bc I've never felt the way I do and it's really scaring me.. I plan on finding a therapist but could use some support in the mean time.