What should I be thinking?

So I have these stretch marks after 2 kids, 1.5 years apart... I think during the second pregnancy my body was dehydrated because I had no marks after my first child..

I know my marks are not nearly as bad as some peoples.. I have no purple scarring.. it just sucks that as I lose weight, my stomach shrinks but becomes more wrinkly... 😐😒.. It looks okay right now, but I'm about 20 lbs overweight here and the lines will intensify once I lose weight. .. How do you think I should be reframing my thinking about my stomach? Right now, I'm obsessing and considering a tummy tuck but we have no money for that any time soon. I just never thought I'd have depressive low self esteem thoughts from body image, but I actually feel like something is wrong with me, i fucked up my stomach, It's my fault I didn't hydrate enough and eat as well as my first pregnancy. And now my stomach is ugly for it. I already have large droopy breasts I'm planning to have reduced once I'm done nursing. .. should i plan to not feel good about my body until I can have a tummy tuck 5-10 years from now?

update: thanks for telling me what you think.. I honestly can't trust my own judgment, which is why I wanted to hear what other ppl had to say. I am aware I probably have ocd/body image issues along with other problems... I just wanted to see *how* far off the map I am. I didn't make this to compare myself to other people or make others feel bad- i ain't responsible for that.. hell I can't get control over my own feelings 😂