I have crippling depression

I dont mean to write the title to be funny in any way like literally i'm in so much pain mentally that it hurts to do anything i got raped recently that's been running through my head.. i'm wondering if happiness is even real cause i haven't felt it in so long.. i'm thinking of talking to my pastor cause i've hit such a low i'm not even christian but i'm just searching for something to make me feel the slightest bit at peace. can somebody talk to me be my friend help me out idk i just feel so lonely and i want to know if anyone feels this empty feeling as i do..