I’m numb.

I don’t feel loved. I can’t feel any emotions over the past few months except for anxiety and sadness. Trust me I’m not lying and there’s been times that I should be happy or annoyed at people but I can’t for some reason. I have one goal in life and that is to find out what is the point of life...of everything? Your probably thinking she’s suicidal, trust me I have felt like it but I know I will never do so. I don’t feel loved and when people ask if I’m okay, I say I’m fine. My dad asks and I say I’m fine then whisper for a numb person. I’m so confused, I need emotions!