Feeling insecure

Hi everyone ❤️

Recently, I've been really hating my body. It's not even that bad. I'm not overweight. I'm in the healthy bmi range. I'm 65kg at most. I'm 14 years old, and everyone around me seems so thin and beautiful. I have a little bit of tummy fat and chubby thighs. I feel so unattractive and gross in comparison. My anorexic (legitimately diagnosed that way) grandfather made a comment about me being 100% overweight at dinner, and it made me want to cry. I've been trying to lose weight, but I just can't. I do at least 30mins of exercise everyday, and eat a little unhealthily. It's hard not to. My parents are divorced, so I move houses, and my dad likes to give us big, homemade, delicious meals, and at my mum's there's a lot of junk food that's just easy to grab. I can't really control what I eat, at the end of the day. I'm trying to love myself, but I don't know HOW. Any tips, please? Anything would help.

If you read this whole thing, thank you 💕