Im so angry at him.

Please pray for me because im a momma of 2 and i cant function right now for my babies. Im crying in front of them and DD whos 2 just seems worried and scared and i just want to be alone because i feel like a crappy mom. My bf called me and my mom a bitch and argued with my parents. He left saying he was going to work. I texted him angrily nothing bad but just explaining how hurt and how everything that happened wasn't right. He read the mssage then hours later i got a notification on the bank saying he went to buy lil ceasers pizza. I seen the location was by his friends house so i got angry all over again and texted him again asking him if he was even working and reminding him i work at 4am in the morning if he wasnt going to come home to help me with them and show up super late to not bother showing up at all. I feel like i might have made things worse. I only texted him 3 times and im driving myself nuts. I dont know what happen or what to do if he even shows up or shows up late. I hate when i do this to myself because all i want to do is lay in bed but i have my kids who need my attention..