opinions on what to do?

So i took tri estarylla birth control for about a year until i started getting really sick from it so i switched to lo leostrin which i’ve been on for only about two months. i’ve gotten huge bruises on my legs and migraines constantly. i called my doctor and he said to STOP taking it. i have an appointment with him next week....i’m not able to be on any form of the pills anymore. i still live with my mom (i’m 17) she really is trying to push me on the implant in my arm. my doctor also really tries to get me to do it every time i have an appointment. i am ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIED OF THAT IDEA! every time i think about it i cry. i’m horrible with that stuff. i pass out at the sight of

blood or needles or anything gross really. i can’t imagine then numbing me even then cutting and sticking that rod in! i can’t even watch videos of it!!!!!! so i tried talking to my

mom about the shot which i’m still terrified of... but i way rather do that than the implant. she told

me it’s a poor decision because the shot causes weight gain. i don’t even care at this point i’m so scared and there’s still a week left.

i have no clue what to do... so if anyone could keep me advice on experience or what they know, it would be very helpful. thank you :)

p.s it seems like a lot of the side effects on stuff happens to me :) 😂